Deadline deluge21 November 2003
4 things due in 4 classes between the 26th and the the first. I guess I should complete them in the order in which they are due. That's the plan now.
I think that I am worrying too much about the first one. the presentation. I am not yet worried about the write-up for that project but I guess if I am able to present on the topic I will be able to write about it.
Honestly, I don't think that that is what I am nervous/worried about. At the same time I only have a hint of an idea about what is so worrisome. Talking to people seems to be the thing that makes me feel better. I'm not really sure why though because I don't generally like talking to people much. Which leads to nobody knowing much about me. I'm not saying that's a bad thing, but it seems to get in the way often. People want me to tell them things and I can't because I don't tell people things.
Why? I have no clue why. There is no reason why I shouldn't want to tell people things. Maybe it had something to do with never fitting in with people and so I don't really like having people around. Or maybe when I told people things they didn't know how to not say anything to other people. I think it was the first thing. I didn't fit in and thus never have felt like I fit in. Sure I can pretend that I fit in (I might even fit in and not know), but without knowing for sure I don't think I will talk (for real).
Song: Flam Sandwich - Blue Devils